Jerry Harrington – my first crush. What can I say? I’m no longer pining, but I always had two lingering questions. Was he gay, and was he interested? I wish I’d know him well enough to keep in touch. 15 years is a long time, but how do you forget the first person you ever wanted to fall in love with, who ou wanted nothing more than to have them acknlowdge you?

James Tyes – a dear friend. James was the brother of my first boyfriend. He moved in with us during the last four months of our reltionsgip. I fell for him in a sweet mis-guideed way. He and I avoided acting on our feelings, so as to avoid hurting his brother. He left me with an idea that ours would’ve been an impassioned and tumultous relationship, as neither of us were stable. Thankfully I avoided falling into this beautiful disaster, or I wouldn’t have been single when Marcus came into my life. Still I am concerned. I have his Mom’s number and the last time she’d heard from him he was unemployed and living on the streets in Florida. I’d love to know he’s okay. He had the worst life, and didn’t smile much. But when he did smile, he had the most beautiful, inmnocent smile that washed away so much. I found a blog that discussed a guy with the same name in his area who had died recently, but I couldn’t cofirm it was him and the owner of the blog never replied to my repeated inquiries. Still I would love to know that he’s okay…

Rachel – friend. Rachel had mental issues. Was dianosed with MPD/DID. During the course of her therapy, her therapist convinced this poor young woman she had sufferred frorm ritualistic abuse. This created a paranoia that affected many of her relationships. Rachel and her therapist became convinced many of her friends were still active parts of the cult, and that I was trying to trigger her to return home for re-programming. I pray she is alright, somewhere out there, and that Rachel healed and found the peace she need.

Mithra Girl, from Fanime, because she is brave and confident and quite pretty. Adventures with Mithra Girl are wonderful and I am quite sure that she has good stories to tell by now.