From the Archives: December 2007

December 31st, 2007

Should Auld Acquaintance Be Forgot…

It’s New Year’s Eve, the day of closing chapters and fresh new beginnings, the day of regrets from the closing year and bright new hopes for the one yet to come. For me it’s a day to take stock of the worst of myself, to find the things I must improve. That’s another post, though, for another year perhaps; as the song goes, it’s a time to remember old friends, especially the ones we haven’t seen for a while and hope we’ll meet again.

I’m listing a few today; to each of these people, it’s been at least a year since we’ve spoken; to each of these people, I’d like to speak with you again.

This post is one part message-in-a bottle, one part game. I’m listing four names here, four people I haven’t been able to reach in at least a year. I invite you to add as few or as many of your own memories to the list as you’d like. If I’m very lucky, some people may reconnect here.

If any of you are reading, You Are Not Forgotten. If any of you are reading, I’d like to speak with you again.

Alisha Found!: Five and a half years ago I was in high school (Class of 2002) and Alisha was a casual friend, an artsy girl from the Pacific Northwest who baffled me and always had interesting stories to tell. She helped me with some of my first steps out of the awkward, science-and-numbers shell I had as a kid, but when we graduated I lost touch with her. The phone number she wrote in my yearbook serves as a fax line to a real-estate company now. Probably she wouldn’t recognize me today (from that far back I don’t think I would recognize myself), but I think she would approve. She’s made it very difficult for the high school to find her. I knew there was a reason I liked her.

Melody: Melody was a student at the California Culinary Academy when I met her, back in September 2003. She wore a fairy shirt and a hemp necklace, and she carried a case of cooking knives beside her. I don’t remember how we started talking, but I do remember her as a very intelligent, very well-adjusted girl, one of the most pleasantly memorable people I’ve ever met on the BART and probably my happiest memory connected to the Folsom Street Fair (where I was headed when I met her). She’s doing well for herself, I’m sure, but once or twice a year I wonder how exactly her story goes.

“Banwynn Oakshadow”: I’m not sure actually if the link goes to the right person. The Banwynn I spoke to was a writer when I spoke to him last; we talked for hours on the phone and planned to meet at cafe sometime in Berkeley, but life intervened and he moved away. It’s been years, though, and hobbies fade away sometimes.

RienCat - Erin’s a generally wonderful but highly unforgiving person, simultaneously savage and refined, cold-hearted and as comforting as a warm blanket on a cold day. She generally despises the political left, but we seem to get along just fine. It’s really hard to explain how she makes all these things balance and work out as well as she does, but the effect is staggering. I have a love-hate relationship with talking to her about my writing, mostly because half the time I talk to her, I wind up throwing out huge chunks of text and writing them anew. The problem is, like most frustrating things about her, it’s worth it. I miss her a little more every time I think about her.

December 25th, 2007

A Present for You!

Well, it is a present for most of you. I think perhaps that some of you will not want it.

Just in time for Christmas, Tanko has given her permission for us to post the first Tybalt pictures ever! She drew them for The Tears of Anael when it was published in the YaoiCon 2004 fiction anthology.

Tybalt is very pretty, but in these pictures he is also very naked! Please use your best judgement before you click on the story.

Thank you and Merry Christmas,
~Catboy! =^.^=

December 25th, 2007

Merry Christmas, Everyone!

Hello everyone!

This is Catboy again. Today I am here to wish you a merry Christmas. If you are part of a religion that celebrates Christmas in a religious way, I hope today is spiritually satisfying for you, and that you may carry feelings of hope, charity, love, and forgiveness throughout the coming year. If you celebrate Christmas as a secular sort of gift-exchanging holiday of togetherness and love, I hope that everybody adores the gifts that you bring to them, that you adore the gifts that people bring to you, and that you eat too much food (but only a little too much!) that is both tasty and nourishing. Of course many people celebrate Christmas in both ways, and to all of you, I wish you both kinds of happiness.

If you are a person who does not celebrate Christmas at all, then I wish you a very happy Tuesday. Everything will be back to normal tomorrow.

Thank you,
~Catboy! =^.^=

I think I have not forgotten anybody. If you feel that I have forgotten you, please leave a comment and I will wish you an appropriate happiness as quickly as I can.

December 23rd, 2007

Letters from a Young Writer: The Aftermath

Back to Part 3

I’m still not sure what I expected to hear when she wrote back. Whatever it was I’m pretty sure this wasn’t it:

to anser the last part im not happy with what i make anyway because when ever i finish i think i need to add more and make it better and then even when i do finish it isint my vision of perfect and somewhere along the rode after adding it to be how i want it to be i finally just say fuck it this is how it will be so to answer that question of if thats what i really want to tell u the truth its not that big of a change

I’m not sure why I decided to give her the benefit of one more doubt. Maybe I’m stubborn that way; maybe I have a hard time admitting that sometimes people are lost beyond help. Sometimes people know their shortcomings but can’t summon up the drive to begin correcting them, but I believe in bootstraps, and sometimes you have to try, one more time.

December 20th, 2007

Letters from a Young Writer, Part 3

Back to Part 2

im willing to lern im only thirteen but i want to be a great author more than anything

I spent a lot of time wondering if I should write back. My day job cuts into my writing time enough as is, and I’m not really sure I believe that she wants to improve. Particularly in fan communities, many writers will praise each other and enjoy being praised, even if their work simply doesn’t measure up. Writing is less an end and more a means for growing closer. They write for community, because humans are storytellers by nature, because they enjoy sitting around the virtual campfire.

Basically it’s a circle-jerk of the ego.

It’s too bad that I’ve never really been friendly enough for that sort of thing.